This week is the start of school for two of our three, hold on, I do not really want to call them kids or children. AH, teenagers, yes that is the correct vernacular.
Ann and I have been married for five years this August and I have only been in Becca’s life for roughly 7 years. Quite honestly I am very jealous of Ann because of this week. Parenting or even co-parenting is not a competition. This might sound very strange following that sentence but this is me being me. Again to repeat this, parenting is NOT a completion. OK, are we clear?
PITY PARTY! TABLE FOR ONE
HOWEVER, (stay with me) because of where we live I have attended more events (please no hate emails) for the girls then Connor. Not a competition.
We are with-in 5 minutes from Ann’s former husband. This allows Ann the convenience to see Becca more on a regular basis because of the close proximity then my 60-minute drive to see Connor.
Yes we have established that I am VERY (VERY) jealous person!
Today I am feeling nostalgic since I was able to walk Connor to his first day of school as a kindergartener. I am not able to walk him to his first day as he is now a high school freshman.
This morning Ann picked up Becca to take her to school. I texted Connor to wish him well and let him know “I love” him.
Are you feeling not just my pain but other parents who do not get to see their kids off on the first day of school?
Life is not easy and the phrase or more of a manta from my grandfather Marty would be said many times over “Life is not Fair.” Life can suck at times.
The feeling of today that has overcome me is mostly guilt. As a parent we HATE missing out on life events. Heck, there have been times when I have attended one of the girls events or even dinner where Connor was not around.
Yes I do carry a lot of so called “Catholic Guilt” and yes I have been analyzed too.
Life is rough but life is even rougher in my opinion when it comes to divorce. Believe me I am fully aware that I am not going to be there physically for every event. It still hurts.
Later today I will get to hear about Connor’s first day. Once again jealousy will raise its ugly head because Connor’s mom will get to hear his story first!
OK, be honest is this just me or have you had these issue before?
I guess the over all bottom line is this. In our blended family I am very blessed to be in the lives of three great, um, crud, what should I say to describe two teenagers and 20-year-old? I will leave it with that description. Anyway, they are three great people (ooh that was good). There are going to be events that will come up and we parent’s will miss.
If you would please excuse me but the Maître d has informed me that my table is ready. With the view of the local Catholic church. Life is not fair, I wanted the view of the Buddhist Temple. They know a thing or two about life.